i should not have went blog-hopping.
now this stupid phobia of mine just became worse k.
maybe i should just start to avoid everything that has got to do about him.
pick up all that shards, and leave without a trace or something more emo.

i should just disintegrate from the surface of the earth or something.
i hate myself for being the most foolish person on earth like how i am the nicest person on earth.
im just not good enough to deserve to have that lovely but improbable dream of mine to come true.
my childish and wishful thinking.

and i realised it is not just me, there are so many others out there. better than me in any way.
more matured,
not as superficial as me,
cleverer,
english better than me,
less vulgar than me,
more responsible,
not as dao as me,
doesnt scream and go crazy,
doesnt fangirl,
doesnt play uno during champs,
have rings,
chio-er,
skinnier,
taller,
everything.
and the list can go on forever.
infinite.
very long.

-insert something more emo please-
(because i know my english is not that good to type, you know, those kind of stuffs. that is touching and gan3 ren2 and everything.)

(that's just me, and that's why i hate myself.)

i suck lah. i already knew that certain stuffs are never going to happen and yet i still remain on this same spot, like how i was few years ago.

Labels: emo

I
have
gone
to
somewhere
you
don't
know.